Relief

So I went in today.I had myself so worked up I had to stop at the chemist and buy myself some rescue remedy before i even went up the stairs.

She got me all stirruped up, spent ages poking around and having a look and then came and put her hand on my leg and said.."I have to tell you, your cervix....................."*heart stops, mouth goes dry, wee runs down leg (or up leg as it were)*....Looks absolutely perfect!!

Gotta love a gyno that likes to build a bit of suspense

Anyway, she didn't even bother wanting a biopsy as there was nothing to hack out. Apparantly cervical cells change all the time and this is normal and healthy but I have an unusually large patch of these cells and the PAP must have been done while they were on the change.

So.

I am so goddamn relieved, I had to have several cigs before I could drive and my hands were shaking for ages afterwards. I am such a geek.I have to make a dentist appointment soon so stay tuned for the next installment of "Australian Drama Queen"

Well crap...

Possible high-grade squamous lesion

Exclude cin2 or 3

Hmm, they are not words you want your GP telling you when you go to get your results for your lady tests.

Ya know, google is not always a good thing. I have spent most of this morning ignoring my kids and FREAKING the fuck out about cervical cancer after searching for the above terms.

I am sure I am fine. I will go for the colposcopy and it will come back A-OK. But jesus tap dancing christ, I was shocked to hear my lovely doctor tell me those words. You just dont expect to hear them right?

So now I have to wait until the 22nd of sep to go have another dr staring up places that no person should be staring up. After two kids, you would think I would be over having people stare up my clacker but I still find it incredibly violating and cringe worthy.

In the meantime, I have a trip to the Gold Coast planned to take my mind of it. Keep your fingers and toes crossed for me will ya?